Death is a day worth living for!!!

today my classmate's father passed away...
even on a blog i won't lie that iam very fond of that guy but i know one thing....losing a loved one is scary...
imagine!!! i can't even bear my dad going for an out-of-station tour ....so how do you bear loss of a parent forever?? loss of any loved one for that matter.... its when it comes to death that i start feeling that life is damned callous...there is no reason why people should die...no reason why people should be left forlorn...but it happens and no one has a proper reason to give!!! i don't believe in the crap the-circle-of -life and rigmarole...i want an answer why this happens????
i lost a friend earlier this year!!! she committed suicide...not just another friend...a very close friend of mine...she was selfish....she left all of us scarred forever!!! but whatever the reason...cowardice,an accident,a disease whatever...it makes you realise that death has it in her power to rob you of your tomorrows...all you have is today..half of which is already past!!!!
so what do you do???? sit down and worry through the other half....no!!! you get up and make that half, worth dying for!!! so that when life(or death for that matter..) takes you by surprise..you don't have much to regret...
you know what i regret the most right now... my friend's B'day was in december...she died in feb. i never wished her that year....this was the first time i missed her B'day and i had no clue it would be the last one...
and i hate the feeling...i hate it when i get up in the morning and see so many things that i ought to do but i don't!!! i hate to see that there are so many people in this world i love and care about...but i don't take out time for them...
i don't want to sit down and ponder if i can make my future better....is there any way i can live my present to my heart's content???!!!! i want to make sure that before my time passes out or my loved ones run out of time....i have told each one of them i love them...i have created memories that we can cherish....
life is unfair u know.....it cheats you once in a while...but more often, it gives you a concession...a chance to rebound...i wish my friend knew that....but she didn't realise it...
i read somewhere "death is the day worth living for"!!! kinda true....(eventhough i don't like to accept anybody else's philosophy....hehehe) It is indeed a day worth living for...
i don't want to lie on my deathbed and wish "oh!! i should have eaten that ice-cream even if i had a cold!!!" or "jeez!!!it would have been better to ride that roller-coaster even if i would have ended up puking in the car" or "hmm.... i should have told him i loved him before he got married...who knows???" no!!!! its a bad idea....coz then i won't be able to go back in time and do those things...
people usually regret what they didn't do more than what they did!!!
its these silly little things which make this life...i don't want to throw away my life doing things which may get me in somebody's good books but may never fetch me the satisfaction i need...and i want to have the sense to realise that nothing that i have in my life is mine to keep...
i know one thing now....life is much more magnanimous and momentous than the stupid problems that constitute it....and all i have is a day to live coz who knows if i have another one written for me or not....
there is a beautiful song by Lee Anne Womack...called "i hope you dance"... it surely tells you a few things you need to know...
"i hope you never lose your sense of wonder..
you get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger...
may you never take a single breath for granted...
god forbid love ever leaves you empty handed...
i hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean...
whenever one door closes, i hope one more opens...
promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance...
and when you get a choice to sit it out or dance...
i hope you dance...
i hope you dance....."